my Dear niece you would've been 10 / Aly Okanee (Auntie)
well this has been a long time coming...i was sitting and thinking about all the perfect words to say...but i realized that the longer i sit and think the longer it would take me to write how i feel about my lil girl....well ur mommy took me out for my 23rd birthday...i know auntie is getting old...haha...well she took me out to a concert in lloydminster we went and seen George Canyon...it was awesome concert...towards the end of his show...he sang a song called "My Name"...i cried when he sang it because i thought about you...the lyrics go like this...
"My Name"
It’s cold in here feels like everything’s upside down
I can feel you talking but I can barley make out the sound
I been kicking around these parts, feels like a year
I’m gonna change this world if I ever get out of here
She wants to dress me in pink, paint’s my bedroom blue
And I just laugh to myself, because only I know the truth
This love is my only emotion
Haven’t learned any fear any pain
It’s kind of funny with all this commotion
I guess they’ve got me, to blame
And they don’t even know my name
And they don’t even know my name
Well I’ve never felt so ready, think it’s finally time
Cause that big old world is waiting, and it’s mine all mine
Just then everything got real quiet, it got real bright
And a man took my hand said don’t worry, your mommas gonna be alright
Then he opened the gate, & I followed him in
Said you can wait right, here till it’s your turn again
And his love is the one true emotion
Heaven knows no fear no pain
I never got to set my wheels in motion
But they loved me just the same
And they never even knew name
Didn’t even know my name
You loved me just the same
And you didn’t even know my name
..i still remember ur kicks and ur mom telling us of when you were moving and when i would put ur hand on ur mom's tummy u would stop moving...haha...my babygirl...the day we lost you...i never had my heart break like that before...knowing that i wouldn't be able to carry my niece...watch her graduate from kindergarten...say way to go when she beat up a boy....come her hair...watch her dance to some song mommy would sing...watch her smiles...listen to her laughs...watch the excitement on grandma and grandpa's face when they would carry you...or take u to the store and let you go shopping....take her sliding...and hurt my butt in doing so...haha...u would've laughed at me and been a little upset because auntie broke her butt sliding...haha...ur brothers and sisters did...but the day they brought you home...ur pink little casket...and when i seen ur pictures and held ur clothes...i broke down and cried...i still cry because i miss you so much...you would've been 10 years old in 2006...Lord knows how much i miss you...i have asked God why....i could never understand...he took my babygirl before i got to meet her...but i always believe things happen for a reason...i miss you and i love you alot...ur my angel up above...ur doing a wonderful job of watching over us...ur in my heart forever...I LOVE YOU MY LIL GIRL!!
Love Auntie Aly
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